Either works for me, but if we meet up I'd rather it be somewhere not so public.

So... I died. And it's kind of messing with my head.

[ she's there in a minute, cautiously opening the door with her little black and white space hamster, bruce, chilling on her shoulder. ]

Hey. [ she ducks into len's room and shuts the door behind her. ] I know this is... not exactly fun, but I didn't really know who else I could talk to about this. So--thanks.

[ she sits next to him, almost mirroring his posture with her knees pulled up to her chest and her arms wrapped loosely around them. ]

I got bit last event. A friend had to-- [ put her down. ] Well. You can probably guess.

[ kara sighs quietly and rests her chin on her knees. ] I feel like I should've been able to handle it myself, you know?

[ she nods, staring hard at her kneecaps as bruce makes a nest in her hair. ]

Everybody from back home is younger than me, or from way back in the timeline, or both. I've been trying to look out for them but I just--I choked.

[ and that's what really gets her. the fact that she couldn't spare someone else from the pain of having to mercy kill someone. ]

I'm well acquainted with failure, but it's never been like this. It's never been someone specific I was looking out for. I've got no idea how to make it up to her. Or if I even can! It's not like they make "Sorry you had to kill me" greeting cards.

[ she leans back and covers her face with her hands, groaning in frustration. ]

And then I was stupid and decided to flirt with Sara because it was better than wallowing about having just come back from the dead and--I'm such a mess of bad decisions this week, Len. Like. The hottest of messes.

Because I have a really terrible track record which probably means it's gonna end in fire like everything else I try to do.

[ carefully cradling her hamster in her hands, kara scoots down so she can sprawl out a little on her back and let bruce run around her sweatshirt. ]

It won't even be the fun kind of fire either.

[ she gnaws at her lower lip, thinking that over for a moment. ]

I just don't want to mess anything up, you know? Whether it's with her, or with Cissie, or my cousin who's here... I'm really tired of falling short.

Of course I have a lot to live up to. I'm Superman's cousin. He's Earth's greatest hero. It's all just--so effortless for him.

[ she'll deny it, but kara's eyes get a little watery. ]

He's just so good at doing this whole hero thing. On top of that he's got a great career, a great wife... Even when he screws up, everyone thinks the sun shines out his butt. And I'm a mess with a short temper who tries and gets soda thrown in her face.

[ none of this is really about sara. sure, kara is definitely afraid of getting in over her head. but most of this? is just issues she's been carrying around for too long and not been able to set down. sara's just an easier problem to talk about. ]

[ she tilts her head to look back up at him. ]

It's not like I can just put all of that down, though.

[ kara scowls and huffs, gently reaching up to pet bruce. ]

It blows. [ that feels like a massive understatement. ] Sometimes I wish I didn't care so much.

Yeah, I kinda figured that out a while ago. Never got drunk, but I did used to try and dance away all my problems.

[ kara scoops her hamster up in the palm of her hand and holds him up closer to len. ]

His name's Bruce. [ squeak! ] He's very sweet.